Conflict

Okay so sorry for my previous post. I think I was too emotional when I was writing that post. However, since last night, I'm trying not to tear a drop... You know, me and Sean were so closed. Both of our parents have known each other for ages which that probably reminds me of how we first met. I still remember that, like it was yesterday. Oh, now I'm going to tear a drop :'(

Enough said! I won't trapped in this sadness as forever! Sera said that this is just another fase I would pass. Well, Sean wasn't "another fase" just so you know. He was my first love and I don't think that he's just an "another fase" for me :/ Oh whatever, actually we both are in our miserable days. Sean left me over, and Sera is trying to spend her 3 days without Lucas :D You can read her blog if you wanna know why~ Anyway, pals, I'm thinking about distracting this blog into something. But I still don't know what is it gonna be? Any ideas?

The Hardest Part

Pheeew, as soon as I promised to keep the blog updated, I lost myself :D That's kinda funny. Well, maybe I can't be like Sera who has the whole perfect time to do blogging. And the photography skills that can be shared. And her beautiful love life with Lucas. And all those fancy fashion stuffs she has.... Just wanna tell you that I just had the worst day of my life.

Like a thousands rock hit me at the same time when I knew I was just a runaway for Sean. After 3 years we spent our life together, I still can't believe it. How can he walks aways this easy as I am not? He never showed any incapability to me for all this time. I'm not a kind of fortune-teller who can read everything that lies in his head... I'm just a human being that communicate with languages, and words. I can't understand body language, but that's not the important thing. I just need reason. Just a reasonable reason.

But you chose not to said it. You didn't want to explain because you thought that's gonna hurt me. But you've already did, and that makes me hurt even more. How can I accept this reality, when I had no clues at all? Why didn't someone tapped my shoulder or reminded me about this? Or the biggest question is....

....how can I walk away?